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Thursday, July 26, 2012
Joint pain-Lyme or Damage?
Joint pain was one of my first symptoms 5 years ago, one day I woke up in a lot of pain and my fingers frozen in the claw position. I couldn't pick my baby up out of her crib, I couldn't unscrew her bottles, it was hard to zip things, button things, snap things, etc. It just got worse from there and my body would add more and more symptoms as time went on and on until a doc FINALLY diagnosed me with Lyme Disease along with the co-infections Babesia and Bartonella. Fast forward 5 years and 2 years of treatment and my body is in a much better place. I normally don't have joint pain anymore unless I push it. So which is it? Lyme disease or permanent damage from going so long with out being diagnosed and treated? I often wonder this. According to one of my lyme docs my Lyme and Bartonella are in remission and I just have Babesia left. This one has been the hardest on my body and hard to treat and get rid of. So when I over do it and my joints hurt, is it the babesia? Maybe my joints will always hurt and get sore when I am more active. If I do a lot of sewing or crafting, I am sore. If I walk a long ways, I am sore. If I work out, I am sore. Maybe I am just not active enough? Maybe babesia is hanging on? Or maybe that is how it will always be. Its frustrating not knowing. At least it isn't as bad as it was 5 years ago. I just hope that one day it will totally be gone and there are no lingering effects of Lyme and I will be in total remission.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Toxicity
Impending doom fills the air
The fog takes over your brain
The fog takes over your brain
It is thick like sludge
Your thoughts slow down
You feel stuck in between two worlds
The toxicity takes over
You can’t think
You can’t focus
You are no longer thinking like a
person
You are thinking like the monster
that has taken over your brain
You want out
It doesn’t matter how
You want to be alone
But know you shouldn’t be
You want to run, but the monster will
follow you
You want it to end
Even if the end is truly the end
You know you need to surround
yourself with those that care
You don’t want to, but force yourself
to
The disease can’t win
You are stronger than that
You are strong
You will beat this
You will fight like you always fight
You will fight like you always fight
You are strong
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