Exhaustion

I have been totally exhausted lately. I have alway been one to like sleep, before having a baby I could sleep until noon and felt great. I was always a night owl and would stay up late and sleep late, on the weekends at least. But if I only got 6 or 7 hours of sleep I could function just fine. Now I NEED sleep and lots of it. This weekend I took a few extra days off of work for the holidays and I slept A LOT! I can sleep for 10 hours solid at night and then get up and eat breakfast, take some pills and be ready to sleep again for a few hours. Who knew 10 hours of sleep wouldn't be enough. It just seems crazy that I can get SO much sleep and still feel totally drained. I ran errands yesterday with my daughter and after going a couple places we stopped at my parents to eat lunch and I could hardly keep my eyes open. I was going to go home so we both could take a nap but I couldn't peel myself off the couch. So we stayed there and took a long nap! My poor body is fighting hard and is totally drained. I wonder when I will get a normal amount of energy back??

Lyme Disease

This is a good video about how many of us Lyme people feel. Watch, educate yourself and support a loved one with Lyme. Its rough, we need support.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas! All I want this year is health and extra cuddles from my little one and hubby! My wish for everyone is a healthy and happy new year!!

Upsetting News

My 3 yr old got tested 3 weeks ago to see if she has Lyme, we finally got the results last night. Unfortunately she does have Lyme Disease :-( Which means I unknowingly gave it to her in utero. Looking back I think I have had it 9 years now. I am in a fog, I don't know what to think, I am numb but very upset at the same time. How can my innocent baby have such a terrible disease and now has quiet the fight ahead of her. It's not fair! She also has MCAD a metabolic disorder which is going to make things so much more complicated. If I feel like hell and don't want to eat, I don't! With her and her MCAD she HAS to eat or she will be in the hospital for her D10 IV. I foresee a lot of hospital stays in our future. All I can say is it sucks, and it's not fair she has to suffer.

Just Breathe

Having trouble breathing tonight and not a fan! Its a scary feeling when you cant get enough air and have air hunger. My arms are feeling funny too, kind of numb like and my face is numb and tingly. If its not anxiety it sure the hell causes anxiety. I need air!!!!! And of course the snow storm causes more anxiety because it would take flippin forever to get to a hospital and my hubby is stuck in horrendous traffic. Come on air, fill my lungs!

Learning about Lyme Disease

My 3yr old was asking me about Lyme Disease so I thought I would video tape her talking about it. I missed some of her questions but thought the video was cute!

Holy Detox Batman!

I was going to bed but wanted to post what just happened. I am so very toxic right now, tons of die off happening and I can feel the toxicity in my body and neurologically. I NEED to get it out! A lot of people detox doing sauna's, epsom salt baths, charcoal, coffee enemas, etc. I decided to try an epsom salt bath tonight since it was easy access. I have taken them before but really cant tell much of a difference. Tonight I could! A few minutes into the bath my feet really started to hurt and ache and then it traveled up my legs. It was pretty painful and really crampy feeling. Then something very strange happened, I could actually feel the toxins leaving my feet! Sounds like a bunch of B.S., but I could feel it leaving my body, how strange is that?! I then started to feel weak and extremely tired and a little off kilter. I am having a hard time typing this because I am SO drained now. I guess it proves how toxic I am right now! Off to bed I go!