Lyme Disease and Pregnancy

This is such a controversial topic. Everyone has their own opinions and there are many different ones. It's the hardest one for me when dealing with Lyme since I don't feel my family is complete just yet. I would like to have one more baby to add to the family, just one more, that isn't too much to ask for is it? Well with lyme, it could be. I have had 10 months of treatment now and I don't see an end in sight which is incredibly frustrating. Looking back I think I unknowingly had Lyme for 9 years and unknowingly passed it along to my 4 yr old daughter during pregnancy. No one will touch her as far as treating her in our area because she is such a complicated case. She was also born with MCAD a metabolic disorder that complicates things to say the least. Although MCAD has nothing to do with Lyme it can effect how she handles treatment. So we are flying out to CT in a couple weeks to see the top Peds Lyme doc there is. Anyways, I mention all of this because this is also an added thought when we consider adding to the family. Our next child would have the same odds as my daughter for MCAD, a one in four chance. So we would be risking the MCAD on top of the Lyme. I feel we have a handle on the MCAD part of it and we know how to take care of a child with it, Lyme on the other hand scares me to death. Do I want to risk having an incredibly tough pregnancy, delivery and postpartum and risk passing it onto my child? Some say as long as you take meds during pregnancy you won't pass it to the baby, some say you won't pass the lyme but could still pass the co-infections, some say it's totally selfish and they would never ever risk it, some say it's worth the risk and you never know what you could be passing along to your baby anyways...Where do I fall in all of this? I don't know. I feel stuck in the middle of it all and worry about every possibility. I could have a totally healthy pregnancy and baby but I could also have a really hard pregnancy and could pass it along to an innocent baby. With my daughter I had a really healthy pregnancy other than puking my guts out for the first 4 months. The delivery went great and she was healthy and pink when born. We found out at 3 days old she had MCAD and have had our fair share of hospital stays but other than that she has been a healthy kid. I pretty much had her tested for lyme as a precautionary because I figured I had it longer than I first thought. Sure enough, she has lyme. She went 4 years with out us knowing she has Lyme Disease. I could have another experience like that and could have a healthy kid and not know until down the line that under the surface there is a disease attacking the child's body like my daughter. Some one got through to me last week and I felt better about possibly having an only child, but it's sure not easy to except when you aren't really the one deciding, it's your health getting in the way of it. Way, way too much to think about when considering adding to your family. My brain is telling me one thing and my heart another. I am lost in it all!!