ER Visit

I recently when on a higher dose of two drugs which were causing too many side effects so I had to take a mini drug vacation. I was still herxing a lot and on day 5 of being off drugs I started having a lot of chest pain and other random stuff. Dizzy, random pain, pukey, numbness, blurry vision, head pain, etc. Really nothing out of the ordinary but was scary because of the chest pain and the location of the numbness. I wasn't sure if I should go get checked out or not. I remembered that my out of state doc has an on call doc at all times so called at 10:30pm. I actually talked to my doc and he reassured me that it was just herxing and thought the chest pain was my muscles contracting. And for whatever reason I was still herxing like crazy even after being off my meds for a while. I felt better after talking to him and went to bed. The next morning I woke up feeling great and then started to feel sick again. It was gradually getting worse and the chest pain was getting unbearable. I has numbness in my left arm, the left side of my face, and the left side of my neck. The pain was also traveling to my shoulders and my back hurt where my heart is located. I couldn't take it anymore and took myself to the ER along with my 5 yr old. They did an EKG, lab work, Xray and I was hooked up to monitors for about 6 hours. My poor kid was such a trooper! I was glad to be hooked up to monitors since I was having such bad heart pain. Everything came back normal,thankfully! The ER doc wants me to do a stress test at the clinic next week just to make sure everything is ok. I hate going in when you don't know if it's herxing or something really happening, you feel like a nerd! But I figure when it comes to your heart, you better make sure! Currently I am back on drugs and slowly building back up again. Hoping I can get back to a normal level and not herx like crazy!!!

What's Going On?

Am I herxing, relapsing, really toxic, needing to change drugs?? I have no idea but I think I am toxic. Things have been rough for a while now especially this week. Yesterday I was puking my guts out, weak, numbness in arms, legs and lower lip, semi high blood pressure for me, twitching and the list goes on. Today I was scared to take my drugs because of how yesterday went. I finally forced myself to take my 1st dose around 4pm, waaaay too late but at least I got it in. An hour and a half later I went down hill. I was at Target with my daughter because I felt fine when we left the house. Not long after we were there I started to feel my body go against me. Very light headed, dizzy, felt like my blood pressure was tanking, really weak, left arm was mostly numb, foggy, couldn't focus, hard to walk, then when I got home the twitching started and my neck was having a hard time holding my head up, weak and twitching. I am starting to feel a little bit better, good enough to type now. A couple of my friends think the way I am detoxing right now maybe isn't working anymore so I am overloaded with toxins. I am looking into different ways to get the toxins out of me and was going to go get clay tonight but then this hit! So tomorrow it is!

I am feeling pretty lost in this fight. It's been 15 months now, why am I not better? Why do symptoms come back? Why is it so up and down? Why, why, why. It's such a struggle to stay on track with taking meds 5 times a day, getting enough sleep, eating the proper meal and certain foods with certain meds and an empty stomach with other meds, remembering to detox, trying to stay active to keep the toxins moving out of your body, trying to work a full time; very demanding job, being a mother, being a wife, being a friend, keeping up with doctor appointments, chiro appointments, acupuncture appointments, and soon to be massage appointments, keeping a medical journal, keeping up to date on anything lyme related. It is exhausting just living!

I am planning a trip out east to see a pretty high up Lyme doc that my doc knows. I will be going in the next couple months in hopes that he can help me heal a bit easier. We shall see what the future hold for me, I am thankful there are docs that really know their stuff and are willing to treat so many of us!