Feeling Defeated

I have been feeling defeated lately. When I first started infusing I felt fine during the day, but nights were really hard. I was on a HIGH dose for my evening infusion. I called my LLMD to ask for zofran and then my yucky symptoms just stopped. It was very strange. Doc still wanted to cut my dose in half since it was a very large amount and also got me some anti nausea meds. I haven't had to use any yet but I am glad I have them on hand. 

It seems as though the 3rd week of treatment has hit me hard and the fun and random lyme roller coaster has kicked in. I feel fine one hour and the next I am completely exhausted and herxing, and then again the next hour I am fine again. Lyme is so weird! Typically by night time and weekends I am completely fried. So exhausted its ridiculous. My daycare and my own children keep me going during the day and into the evening, but man I am pooped! Then you add in some insomnia and its a party over here!

 Tonight I pushed myself way too hard to get some shopping done. I wanted to get all Easter shopping out of the way but that also meant too many stores in one night. I am exhausted, my whole entire body is humming and vibrating, I am getting shooting random pain in various areas, and feel like I have fatigues muscles. 

Since my hubby works strange hours it has been hard for me to get all the errands taken care of. I am definitely going to do as much shopping as possible from the computer and having it delivered. Thankfully between amazon and a grocery delivery service here I think I can get most things I need. Also need to stop pushing myself so hard to try and keep on top of so many things. Can't be super women, need to give that cape a rest sometimes ;-) On a side note, I am thankful my 2yr old doesn't seem to really care much about me infusing and what its all about. 

Picc Line Is In!

Picc line is in! I had it inserted on March 1st, and thankfully the same nurse I had last time was who I got this time. She's really great-so kind, calm and caring. Last time I had my picc line placed they had a hard time getting it to go to the proper place. Thankfully, this time around they have some new technology and it went much, much smoother. It only took 1 try vs 4 last time. Phew, I was very thankful for that. I had myself worked up over it since it took so many try's last time around. I wasn't looking forward to that part of it. But this time really was a breeze, so easy and smooth and hardly any pain at all. 

Before they started getting set up to place the picc line, they hooked my up to a normal IV in my hand to make sure I wasn't allergic to a particular antibiotic. Once they got that running the picc line process started. Since I infused at the clinic, that is officially the first day starting back on IV therapy. I am now about 3 weeks in and have had both good days and bad days mixed in there. Here are some pictures of the picc line process. 

A New Health Chapter

About a week ago I traveled to see a new lyme doc.  I have heard for a long time that he is amazing and the top lyme doc in my area, so got on his waiting list. Took 9 months to get in but his current wait list is 14 months so  I was lucky to get in within a 9 month wait time.  The doc was great, he really took the time  to listen to my history, questions, comments and concerns. He did a great job explaining things and his staff was fantastic. The nurse also did a great job explaining all the strange tests she was giving me. They seem pretty up to date with the testing etc they were doing and I found it pretty interesting. Lets see if I can remember everything--

When I got there the nurse gave me some tests I have never heard of or had before. The Bioelectrical Impendence Analysis and Phase Angle and Cardio Wave Analyzer. 

Phase Angle is a calculation of 2 electrical properties, reactance and resistance, on a cellular level. Phase angle is an indicator of membrane integrity and water distribution in and around the cells in our body.  It tells us how well our cells are performing. Surprisingly, I did well in this test and my cells are working well in my body currently. 

For the Bioelectrical Impendence test I was hooked up to electrodes to measure body composition, fluids distribution, body fat, body mass, etc . It measures the resistance of the body tissue.He didn't end up going over these results with me so I am not sure where I stand with this one and no clue what the results mean on the print off. I may have to do some research on this one or just ask next time I am in. It basically just gives him a measure on how well my body is handling my current health state and will help give a comparison when I start treatments etc. 

Cardio Wave Analyzer. This tests Digital pulse wave analysis, Heart rate variability and The autonomic nervous system, Sympathetic nervous system Parasympathetic nervous system and Accelerated vascular. 

When doc came in we went over my whole history, I tried to remember everything since all my records didn't6+ come in time for some reason. Hope I hit all the important points, its hard to remember 9 years worth of medical problems. He asked a lot of questions and I thought it seemed really up to date in the field and very knowledgeable. Its pretty clear that both lyme and babesia are back full force. He checked my hands and feet with this vibration tool. My hands did really well and I have good sensation and no loss of feeling but my feet are showing some damage, I couldn't feel the vibration for as long or as strong in the feet vs hands. Right foot seems to have more damage than the left. He also said he saw arthritis in my front collar bone by just visually looking at it, one side sticks out more than the other. Hands have Rheumatoid Arthritis, he also said my hands have Swan Neck Deformity, which I have never heard of before. I looked it up and the definition--is a deformed position of the finger, in which the joint closest to the fingertip is permanently bent toward the palm while the nearest joint to the palm is bent away from it-- is exactly how my hands look. I hope my hands don't get worse because those photos on the web are disturbing!! Never google haha! He also did a brain assessment screener test-9 and above is severe...I tested at a 23. Which basically means my body is constantly in the Flight or Fight stage and why I have trouble with anxiety and lines up with Babesia always raking havoc on the brain and function of the brain. Aka-my brain and autonomic nervous system are a hot mess and all over the place.  The plan moving forward--

They took 6 vials of blood to run an immune panel, and new patient panel to monitor health markers.

I will be re-tested via I-genex testing in CA. They are the gold standard in lyme testing. Their comprehensive lyme panel looks for lyme disease from several points of view. This test will include an immunofluoresence assay, western blot testing and PCR testing. An immunofluoressence assay is looking for IgG, IgM, and IgA to lyme disease. The western blot looks for antibodies of IgM or IgG to specific parts of the lyme bug, and PCR searches for DNA of the lyme bug. While no test is perfect this is an excellent first step in the laboratory diagnoses of lyme disease. If we can prove lyme and get a CDC positive it really helps lyme cases and getting insurance to cover medications, testing, and the general medical world to take you serious. It also really helps your case if you were to apply for disability. Any good lyme doc out there will not just go off of labs, it also has to be a clinical diagnoses. Testing is just not accurate enough bc those darn bugs and spirochetes can dig so deep in your body. 

I have to come back two separate times for more testing. These tests are called Evoke. Evoke EEG and CNS vital signs. They can not be done on the same day so have to go back twice for this. The evoke test is a neurocognitive test but also measures a wide variety of my underlying neuro-endocrine physiology. It is a sensitive measure of  my autonomic nervous system balance. It is the autonomic system that is the interface between your brain and your endocrine and immune systems. It also measures and maps your brain waves, which help them understand how my brain is operating and how it is responding to stress. It also gives indication of GI health. mitochondrial health and certain chronic infections.

The treatment plan- Since its clear things are back full force, I had done many years of oral antibiotics, bicillin injections and responded the best to IV treatments via picc line, he is ordering another picc line placement. I have mixed feelings but I know my body will respond best to this sort of treatment. My only worry is I will herx a lot. Last time I had my picc line placed, I was warned by many to brace myself bc I am in for a hell of a ride with such powerful drugs being pumped into me twice a day. But, I felt amazing. This time around my body isn't going from years of orals and then straight to a picc line....so the herxing could get rough. But, I am hoping it makes me feel good again vs sick. As long as we can get insurance to covered it that's the plan and he wants to do this soon. The clinic is contacting a couple infusion companies and they will contact me to get rolling. He wont say how long the picc line will be placed for because it just depends on how my body does with the treatments but its a minimum of 6 months. In addition to IV treatments I will also be doing a bunch of supplements again.  I also will start a very high dose of stevia, a special kind. This particular dosing and kind is known for killing off lyme. Also on the list is to start HBOT--Hyperbaric oxygen treatments. NOT excited for this one, I am claustrophobic and being locked into a small chamber and being pumped with oxygen doesnt sound fun to me one bit. It has to be a special kind and luckily there is one not too far from my house. HBOT is a way to increase the amount of oxygen in your tissues. Studies have shown that HBOT can imprive all of the key physiologic areas of the functional medicine matrix. This included the GI barrier function and altering the gut microbiom. HBOT can kill certain pathogens, decrease inflammation, and improve the activity of white blood cells. It can improve mitochondrial function thus improving the conversion of fluid in the energy. Bio transformation/detoxification can be enhanced by HBOT. It has also been shown to increase the sensitivity to messenger molecules such as nitric oxide and certain growth factors. It has also been shown to release your own stem cells. I have  many friends who have done HBOT. 

Since originally writing this I have an update on the picc placement. I will thankfully be using the same infusion company as last time and even my same nurse for my home care! They are such a great company to work with. I will be getting the picc line placed next Tuesday, 3/1/16. I am hoping they get it on the first try and it's not as tricky as last time. Once it's in I can't feel it and it is pretty easy to use. Here we go, hope its not a rough ride!! 

Remission

I AM IN REMISSION, yup I said it, remission!!!! I honestly never thought I would get to this place in my life. What a sweet word remission is, music to my ears and all of those fighting the Lyme battle. I want to throw a remission party, yell it from the rooftop, dance around, sing, party, do everything I couldn't do for so very long. I am very happy, but also leery. I know lyme can come back at any time and I haven't been in the clear too long. December 19th I had my PICC Line pulled out and have been in remission since then. I am currently on maintenance drugs so I am not drug free, but many good Lyme docs out there know that this is the best way to do it. You should never just stop treatment all at once. Your body has been sick for so long and on meds for so long that it would really throw it for a loop cutting things out cold turkey. So for now, I am on a couple to make sure things stay at bay for a bit. I take it everyday but everyone is different. I have a friend that is doing great and he only has to take meds one weekend a month to make sure he stays healthy. That isn't bad at all!

I have been gradually been getting better for a while but always hit road blocks and could never get over the hump. The key for me was the IV treatment via the picc line. Everyone on my medical team was amazed at how fast I was getting better on it. I hardly herxed compared to other treatments I have tried and was improving at a pretty fast pace. I only had the picc line in for a total of 4 months and it didn't take me long to feel well and could tell it was working! It is amazing to me that someone can improve so quickly when you find the correct combo for their body! Makes me wonder what would have happened if I would have done this a long time ago. 

It is fascinating to me that such a tiny tube in your vein can provide such important medications to get you better. A tube that is always in your arm, that goes all the way to your heart and stays there. Just chilling in your vein doing its job. A tube that is kind of complicated to get put in and so easy to take out. To take it out all my nurse had to do was pull it out, that's it! I couldn't even feel it and wasn't grossed out like I thought I would be. Such a tiny tube with such a big job! Boy am I thankful for that little tube! I had to keep the spot covered for 3 days so air couldn't get into my vein and then I was safe to let air on the spot and shower like normal. I kept it covered for an extra day since I was paranoid air would get into my lungs if it was exposed to air too soon. It has been very nice to shower with out having to cover part of my arm! Now you can hardly tell I had anything in my arm. There is just a small red scar that I am sure will fad more over time. 

I am living proof that long term antibiotics DO help and that many in the lyme community need that to get better. There is no easy or fast fix when it comes to such a complicated disease. It's a long, hard, hard battle. I wish all of us could get to the point of remission! Keep fighting the good fight and never give up!!!