Panic Attack

Panic Attack 

Everything is loud like a fun  house

I cringe, plug my ears

Nothing helps

My chest is tight

A giant is sitting on it

My heart is being squeezed

I can't breathe

I need air

It's thick and can't get air

The room is spinning

I close my eyes, try to focus

Focus

Focus

Breathe

Feel the room around me

Feel the ground

Breathe

Breathe Breathe

Count, inhale

Count, exhale

You will be okay

You will not die

Focus

Breathe

Inhale, exhale 

Escape the noise

The body slows down

Count, inhale 1-2-3-4-5

Count, exhale 1-2-3-4-5

Slow down

The room slows down 

Breathe 

Breathe

Feel the air

The room stops moving

You are back

You are alive

You are breathing 

You are okay 

The giant has left

You are breathing 

Take a deep breath

Feel it in your lungs

You are okay

Julie 2012

Update

Thing have been kind of mellow going from drugs to drug breaks. Now I am on new treatment for 8 weeks and its already been rough. Lot of bugs dying, that's for sure!! Even though it is miserable I know that this is how I am supposed to feel and it just means the treatments are working. Today I have been a sick, over heating, sweaty, pukey mess today. Luckily the hubby was home from work so took care of the kiddo so I could sleep all day. This too shall pass and I will come out better in the end.