Thursday, June 14, 2012

Panic Attack

Panic Attack 

Everything is loud like a fun  house
I cringe, plug my ears
Nothing helps
My chest is tight
A giant is sitting on it
My heart is being squeezed
I can't breathe
I need air
It's thick and can't get air
The room is spinning
I close my eyes, try to focus
Feel the room around me
Feel the ground
Breathe Breathe
Count, inhale
Count, exhale
You will be okay
You will not die
Inhale, exhale 
Escape the noise
The body slows down
Count, inhale 1-2-3-4-5
Count, exhale 1-2-3-4-5
Slow down
The room slows down 
Feel the air
The room stops moving
You are back
You are alive
You are breathing 
You are okay 
The giant has left
You are breathing 
Take a deep breath
Feel it in your lungs
You are okay

Julie 2012

Tuesday, June 12, 2012


Thing have been kind of mellow going from drugs to drug breaks. Now I am on new treatment for 8 weeks and its already been rough. Lot of bugs dying, that's for sure!! Even though it is miserable I know that this is how I am supposed to feel and it just means the treatments are working. Today I have been a sick, over heating, sweaty, pukey mess today. Luckily the hubby was home from work so took care of the kiddo so I could sleep all day. This too shall pass and I will come out better in the end.