Impending doom fills the air
The fog takes over your brain
The fog takes over your brain
It is thick like sludge
Your thoughts slow down
You feel stuck in between two worlds
The toxicity takes over
You can’t think
You can’t focus
You are no longer thinking like a
person
You are thinking like the monster
that has taken over your brain
You want out
It doesn’t matter how
You want to be alone
But know you shouldn’t be
You want to run, but the monster will
follow you
You want it to end
Even if the end is truly the end
You know you need to surround
yourself with those that care
You don’t want to, but force yourself
to
The disease can’t win
You are stronger than that
You are strong
You will beat this
You will fight like you always fight
You will fight like you always fight
You are strong
You ARE strong. Keep fighting-----we will win!
ReplyDeleteThis is awesome.. do you mind if I link it from my blog?
ReplyDeleteSure go ahead
Deleteawesome thanks :)
ReplyDeletehere is the link http://betsydancesintherain.blogspot.com/2012/07/toxicity-from-julies-blog.html
This one made me cry because it is exactly how I feel! Your words are exactly on cue. I have had this for 2 year but have only known about it for 3 months. Been on Amox. for 10 weeks and when they took me off for even a day I would collapse. They put in a PICC line about 5 days ago. The everyday pain is better but I am still sooo tired. However, THIS WILL NOT BEAT ME! I WILL FIND A WAY TO OVER COME IT! Thank you for all your words of wisdom and sharing your experience. Hopefully we can continue to communicate. BTW, my husband works for an insurance company - and that hasn't made things any better:)
ReplyDeleteWelcome to the world of treating lyme disease. The beginning is the hardest, it gets easier. I just had a picc line put in too. I need to blog about it. Its been 5 years I have had lyme now and treatment for..28 months. Its getting better little by little. I have faith you will get there
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