Saturday, September 25, 2010

I'm scared

It's 3am and I can't sleep. I feel so sick, my chest hurts, back back feels....strange, not sure how to describe it. My body feels kind of numb, a scary numb and very nauseous. I feel like I need to go in....but for what? They won't know how to treat me, or what to treat me with. I hate this month, I just want it to be over. Usually your first month of treatment is the worst but this one sure is coming in close. It's been a whole month, stop already, I need a break, I can't take it anymore, I want out! I want normal!!! I ate a cup of fruit before bed, could that be the culprit? Sugar? Food intolerance? I don't know, all I know is I feel like hell and I want to be done.


  1. Sorry you had such a rough night. That is horrible. Sept is almost over! ;)

  2. I know just what you mean. I started Lyme treatment June 1, this year after being sick for almost 2 years. The summer was a blur, then I finally had some of what I call "magic" days in August with few symptoms. Then, in September, I had over a week with very few symptoms. I thought, ah ha, finally some progress! It's now been maybe a week, though I lose track of time, and I am becoming sicker and sicker with joint pain, nerve pain, nausea, headache, you name it. I'm miserable. I had a downward decline of symptoms in mind;apparently, my body didn't.