It has been a rough week or so. I found out my cousin passed away unexpectedly which has been a huge shock to everyone involved. Of course I was very upset and really stressed out about the situation. I shut down my daycare and planned for the trip. He lived in a different state so my family and I loaded up a big van and headed out of town so we could be there to support the rest of the family and to say our good byes to him. The drive was about 5-6 hours depending on how many stops we made. Between the stress building up, the drive time, having to skip certain meds because of such a busy schedule, having to say good bye, hotel beds, having a hard time finding proper gluten free and dairy free meals and some drama involved I am maxed out. My body is pretty mad at me and I am in a lot of pain. Mentally and emotionally it's been hard to deal with and physically my body is breaking down. I feel so bad for my uncle and my other cousin. It's hard to see people hurting so much and knowing you cant take the pain away. I wish there was more I could do to ease the pain for everyone. Stress is not good for Lyme but I still think it's nothing compared to loosing your son and your brother. I am trying to find peace knowing he is in a better place now and not in pain anymore. I love you, cousin!
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Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Lyme+Stress+Traveling=Rough Shape
It has been a rough week or so. I found out my cousin passed away unexpectedly which has been a huge shock to everyone involved. Of course I was very upset and really stressed out about the situation. I shut down my daycare and planned for the trip. He lived in a different state so my family and I loaded up a big van and headed out of town so we could be there to support the rest of the family and to say our good byes to him. The drive was about 5-6 hours depending on how many stops we made. Between the stress building up, the drive time, having to skip certain meds because of such a busy schedule, having to say good bye, hotel beds, having a hard time finding proper gluten free and dairy free meals and some drama involved I am maxed out. My body is pretty mad at me and I am in a lot of pain. Mentally and emotionally it's been hard to deal with and physically my body is breaking down. I feel so bad for my uncle and my other cousin. It's hard to see people hurting so much and knowing you cant take the pain away. I wish there was more I could do to ease the pain for everyone. Stress is not good for Lyme but I still think it's nothing compared to loosing your son and your brother. I am trying to find peace knowing he is in a better place now and not in pain anymore. I love you, cousin!
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I'm so sorry you are having to go through this right now. So, so, so, so sorry. Thinking of you and praying for you while you heal and recover. XOXOXO
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